The past few weeks has been a rollercoaster... I have been quite amazed at how God brings people into each other's lives and yet i find myself resisting at times what God has in store for me. I have gotten quite close to Mark and Michael, hanging out with them pretty much everyday or talking with them as much as I can. God has put them inside my life for a reason and I am thankful for them. I do feel like I have DRIFTED away from so any people in my life. It sucks but I know God uses people and uses me in specific instances for a reason. Maybe its not my time yet or their time to be used in any specific purpose in my or their lives. I do miss them very much. Ericson left a couple of weeks ago. Im not quite sure if we were super close really but I know God used him to show me what I dont want to be. hahaha not to talk bad about him but yeah... his priorities were so different than mines that we did not find ourselves clicking very much. Paulo is almost the same btu i find myself so comfortable with him everytime i see him that i do constantly think about him. Amber is still missed. what happened still haunts me though and it does get hard at times. Jong is soemthing else. I love the guy to death. I guess we just drifted apart cuz i was always complaining about me me me or telling him things he didnt need or want to know but yeah. I do miss that fellowship we had in the beginning. I miss our talks about GOd and whatnot... but I guess we'll see what happens there... I also miss having chats with David.. tall david not my bro david.. hahahaha. i grew so much from him... God mostdefinitely used him to plant me in faith. I am so thakful for him. him, and daniel has pushed me past the walls the devil has placed in front of me...
in the process i made many new friends... i grew closer to David my brother. I am barely seeing his passion for God and his passion is so much stronger than mine in certain aspects and yet he grows from what I teach him in certain aspects. I also grew super close to mark and mike as i said. I spend day and night with these guys. However i do recognize the trend. that is how i start my amazing friendships and then it fades away. I dont wnat that happen but if god puts me in their lives for but a season then its cool. God always sends those who i need when i nee dthem the most, God is awesome. God is amazing. I love God so much and i pray that in my life His will be done.
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