Money falling from Heaven

NO KIDDING!!! I had such an amazing time with God last night... so beautiful is the Word of God. I set my paths straight with God last night and man he is blessing me left and right today. I cant believe how blessed I am... God is good., Praise Him, and may my praises build up His kingdom. But man i didnt realize it till now but I have been so blessed today. I have this peaceful feeling for my trip to Australia. I got notification that I already have $2000 for the trip from my parents and I recieved $150 in checks from people. I also recieved $20 from my PCC club coordinator all randomly after going to the PCC CCC meeting. I met new friends at PCC who are involved in CCC. I am now sitting in front of a new $100 that I will deposit for my trip... and I have $70 in my wallet for my trip to Virginia tomorrow. I feel confident about my spanish test tomorrow. I finished my work book for Chapter 2... I was able tutor this guy in my spanish class.. although I couldnt tutor him as much as he wanted to, I tutored him to the best of my knowledge. I also receieved a $500 check from one of my mom's patient's sons... however... its made for the wrong name. It was made for Campus Crusades for Christ while the other checks went for my name. Eric also let me borrow hi sipod for the week which was random. I was just alking to joe and then he hooked it up with the ipod. I also got a free airlien ticket to go to Virginia and back. Man God is good. Erin called me, who is suppose to pick me up so that ride from tita michelles house to harrisonburg is dealt with. Man I am so blessed. I cant believe God loves me this much. I want to do so much things for Him and ofr the people here on earth> I cant wait to get there. But as of now, I am goign to move where I am at and fill this place with light and act as a fingerprint for God wherever I go.

Self-Decieved

I had a wonderful time in big bear. I was able to get to know the people I work with at epic and I was able to really evaluate where I am at Spiritually. I believe I was there for a reasona nd the day sthat I spent there were eye openers. I was able to bond with Mike from summit and Eric. I dont really know how but I was able to listen to part of their life stories. It just amazes me how much God works in their lives. I feel like I have been decieving myself all along. I have been growing but then somehow I stopped. But these guys are living their lives with such vitality and yet are still able to focus on God. I feel so empty inside. Honestly I didnt think much of Eric being all close to God. I didnt. I saw him as a goofball who everyone likes to hang out with. I never saw the spiritual side of him until recently when Percy invited me to their Biblestudy. I think that was pretty cool ho wthat happened. I randomly worked on a Tuesday... I NEVER work on Tuesdays but that one day I did... and so I was invited to go to their Biblestudy and thats where I kinda found out that I was wrong about eric. Slowly, I kinda now look up to him. HOw outgoing he is and how a goofball he is but still able to serve God. Im not putting a pedestal on him cuz I know, as a guy, we fall a lot. I just admire how he is such an extrovert. I have always wanted to be there. I am such an introvert. But Eric kinda showed me that its okay to act like a goofball sometimes... I still want to get to know him a little bit mroe cuz i think he is living such a great life and I want to live a life like that. Im not saying that my life sucks.. It doesnt. I like my life. But i know that if what he told me, I can live out, I will just that much more closer to God. He really challenged me. So did Mike. Friday night, I go to the cabin and take a shower. I try to have a quiet time but everyone was being loud upstairs so I go downstairs and read. Mike was sleeping down stairs and we started talking. He's a pretty cool guy. He too challenged me. I want to follow their footsteps. I have so many peopl ehave been speaking in my life and i dont want to be a person who just sits there an dnods their heads... I want to be a person of action... But something holds me back. Its so hard to fight it back and I havent done anythign yet. But i can feel it. I can feel a change going on and I kno wthat God can only fill that emptyness. God is going to work through me in such ways I wont even guess. Im excited. Im moving on. THank you God for putting people in my life such as eric and michael. They are such a blessing and I i want to be like them so that I can be a blessing to others as they have been to me.

I Can Go the Distance...

But I can't reach the notes to sing it. Wow Michael Bolton sure sings high. I am to pick a song for intermediate voice class to sing for a solo and wow the song I picked was in a really high key. I could barely reach it top of my falestto range. Key of D is wow. hard to reach.Gotta change the song. How embaressing but oh well. My fault for procastinating on picking the song. Jasson and Steph did really well doing their solos thoe. I wish I had a great voice like them but yeah. IN due time I will hopefully increase my voice range.

I was able to sing it at home thoe. Iono why I couldnt do it in class. I was filled with nerves and my vocie just kept shaking. At the end, I even landed on a flat. errr. OH well. I need to find a nice baritone friendly song.

Other than that the day was pretty much amazing. I was doing crossword puzzles in my car inbetween classes. I didnt know those were so relaxing. hahaha. I finished 3 of em in between my first aid and history class.

Gotta practice the songs for the advance. I thank God for giving me the opportunity of using the talents He gave me to worship Him. He has constantly moved me up from band to band, challenging me to the next level. I am not the keyboardist I was 2 years ago. I still am no very good but I am better at following things. THanks God

Without a doubt, I am already there

The problem I have is I dont worry. Wierd sounding? Kinda. Most people worry. I dont. I just take it as it is. I dont complain too much, I dont say anything, I dont flinch or squirm. I just kinda stand there and stand thorugh it. God said dont worry. I dont. But why is it a problem of mine. Its because Im not following the rest of that commadnement. It says to trust in the Lord. What I am doing is kinda not worrying but at the same time not trusting. I am just taking as it is, leaning at my own understanding at that time and workign things out as it passes by. How can I stand there and say I am a Christian when what I am drifts me farther away from God. Ive known this of myself for a while and Ive been trying to fix it. I know God has been speaking to me through other people cuz i myself am not listening to the Spirit in me. God is using His Spirit in other people to reach out to me. It is time to not just stand. I need to move.

On friday, I had a meeting with Friz and she was giving me ideas on how to raise money for Australia this summer. I learned alot. One of the things she said to me is that "Do not worry. God has already planned where you are going to go in the future. So techinically, without a doubt, I am already there." Its true. I should trust God more so that I am more than ready to go when I am sent.

I have a spanish test tomorrow. I feel like I know most of the things. Its so easy. But yeah. I am still stressing a lil bit. Well not really. I say stressing but I dont stress like everyoen else. Me stressing is me studying for an hour and understanding it then questioning myself if I do then go back anotehr 5 mins then done. Everyone else goes crazy and posts everything on their facebook and what not and wait for people to agree that stress sucks. lol. I like to agree sometimes. But there is way too much I HATE LIFE CUZ OF STRESS FROM SCHOOL notifications. way too much. How about enjoy life. Ok maybe i shouldt say that cuz I myself sometimes do it but then lets just say I am saying to myself too so then techinically I can say it. YEAH.

Work was tiring today. I got there at 615 and yeah I was tried the whole day. Work went by fast thoe. Im gonna miss it since I wont work for the next two weeks. issing next weekend cuz of the advance (WOOT WOOT) then Virginia the next weekend (WOOT WOOT EVEN MORE) I cant waity for Virginia!!!! Im so excited. I want to meet the people Im going to Australia with. I also want to know how the rooming is going to be. I know there is only 4 guys in the team but I hope we wont have to share beds like in the conferences. The last two people I had to sleep with were crazy. But I move alot too so I dont want to be all crazy if I share a bed with someone. Also I snore a lot so its hecka embaressing too. I snore very loud. Ive been trying to train myself but.. not working... anyways back about work. Nothibg too crazy. Julie intimidates me cuz she's never there and I always think she's gonna pop out of nowhere and see me do somn wrong then say YOUR FIRED!! lol. worked with zac in the bookstore today. it was hecka boring. I was just roaming around the whole time helping people. Zac did all the register stuff.

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeent home.. took a nap and BAM... now IM here. I have a song to do for voice class tomorrow. Its the song I Can Gg The Distance from Hercules. But when I picked it I didnt know there was other parts. ITS SO HIGH!!! I have to sing falsetto most of the time. I mean it doesnt sound too bad but its kinda straining. But yeah. Trying to improve my range and the quality of my vocie cuz it sucks right now. I also have to learn all the songs fo rthe dvance by Tuesday night. I need to start working on that after classes tomorrow. I did such a bad job the last service I need to work harder cuz I want to do things for God in excelence.

I love my life. God sows me things I need to work on and I work on em. Its a wonderful life. I can look back and honestly say, I WAS THIS AND NOW IM TOTALLY DIFFERENT. Thank You God

Start with Leap then walk on a road not paved

Christine Caine is such a phenominal speaker. Its such a blessing to have her speak at my church. I learned so much as a future-evangelist. Scratch that. Why does it have to be future. Evangelist. But anyways. Like she said a life worth taking is a life with Jesus which is risky. But many of us avoid,for our whol elives, getting anywhere near the risky scene. We try to fill it with matreialistic scenes and hide behind that. Or if we do want to do somn we want it have done already so we can take it step by step. No risk at all. But God didnt call us to stay in our comfort zone. Its a lead of faith... not a sit of faith. We must pave our own roads.

Birthday Man... Faith is Expectations

Today I had a divine appointment from God. I wasnt expecting anything cool to happen today . Thinking back on what Pastor Kelly said last night about faith, we are to expect that God is going to work in our lives. That is faith. We'll God caught me off guard. I was playing FFXII this morning just kinda procastinating on doing some errands. But around 1130 I finally get off my butt, get dressed, and drive to church to getr my pay check. I always pick up my check on Fridays, cuz I always think IMa lose it if I pick it up during Summit. But yeah. I picked it up and drove to the bank. Nothing out of the ordinary. I go in, deposit, then come out. As I walked to my car, there was a man sitting by the bushes in front of my car. He looked at me and I at him. I knew this was from God. He said he needed held and I was open to help him. His name was Alejandro but Alex in short. He said he was released from the hospital today, on his birthday. He still had his tags on and a wrist band saying he was from a hospital. He said he lived in the streets and was hungry. I offered to take him to Baja Fresh. His eyes light up. It was like I had nothing else I could do but help. Its almost automatic... but not me working.. but the Spirit. It was amazing. There was a reason I was there at that time and a reason why he was there also. He praised God for bringing me to him on his birthday. I bought him food and then gave him a $20 gift card to baja fresh. His eyes were amazed seeing a stranger help him out. I was glad God used me today. I was open and He used me. I was ab le to tell him about faith community church and the set free groups. He said he will go. I hope so. I expect that God will work in his life as He does to mine. Its not arrogant to say so. Its faith. Its faith.

"When You See Fear, You Bring Faith"

Pastor Kelly said that quote. There is more to the quote but this caught my attention. Itrs true. Sometimes all we do is bring fear. But the moment we become Christians, there is something else that can take that place of fear. It is faith. Why are we so scared in walking acrross the street to talk to that woman in need? Why are we so bent on going to another nation only to follow a trend cuz its IN to help others in other countries but not the people in our communities in need of help. Its fear. We are scared of ridicule from people close to us, even if its physically. But we shouldnt care. When Moses said OH I CANT SPEAK... God wasnt saying OH I DIDNT KNOW MY POWERS DEPENDED ON HOW YOU SPOKE. Nope. We are but ashes compared to God. And ashes is being generous. I am not being critical on anyone else. God will not force us to go out to the world unprepared. He will open doors when we are prepared. I am being critical with myself. I have had so many opportunities but ive just passed them. I want my faith to not just be a stance on things. We are not called to stand. It even says in Psalm 1:13 "Blessed is the man who does not... stand in the way of the sinners." There are two types of sins. Sins of Commision, sins that we do and think. But there are Sins of Ommission as well, sins against God by not obeying what He has ordered. And fear can lead up to the sin of ommission. Simply put, my faith must take the place of fear.