Without a doubt, I am already there

The problem I have is I dont worry. Wierd sounding? Kinda. Most people worry. I dont. I just take it as it is. I dont complain too much, I dont say anything, I dont flinch or squirm. I just kinda stand there and stand thorugh it. God said dont worry. I dont. But why is it a problem of mine. Its because Im not following the rest of that commadnement. It says to trust in the Lord. What I am doing is kinda not worrying but at the same time not trusting. I am just taking as it is, leaning at my own understanding at that time and workign things out as it passes by. How can I stand there and say I am a Christian when what I am drifts me farther away from God. Ive known this of myself for a while and Ive been trying to fix it. I know God has been speaking to me through other people cuz i myself am not listening to the Spirit in me. God is using His Spirit in other people to reach out to me. It is time to not just stand. I need to move.

On friday, I had a meeting with Friz and she was giving me ideas on how to raise money for Australia this summer. I learned alot. One of the things she said to me is that "Do not worry. God has already planned where you are going to go in the future. So techinically, without a doubt, I am already there." Its true. I should trust God more so that I am more than ready to go when I am sent.

I have a spanish test tomorrow. I feel like I know most of the things. Its so easy. But yeah. I am still stressing a lil bit. Well not really. I say stressing but I dont stress like everyoen else. Me stressing is me studying for an hour and understanding it then questioning myself if I do then go back anotehr 5 mins then done. Everyone else goes crazy and posts everything on their facebook and what not and wait for people to agree that stress sucks. lol. I like to agree sometimes. But there is way too much I HATE LIFE CUZ OF STRESS FROM SCHOOL notifications. way too much. How about enjoy life. Ok maybe i shouldt say that cuz I myself sometimes do it but then lets just say I am saying to myself too so then techinically I can say it. YEAH.

Work was tiring today. I got there at 615 and yeah I was tried the whole day. Work went by fast thoe. Im gonna miss it since I wont work for the next two weeks. issing next weekend cuz of the advance (WOOT WOOT) then Virginia the next weekend (WOOT WOOT EVEN MORE) I cant waity for Virginia!!!! Im so excited. I want to meet the people Im going to Australia with. I also want to know how the rooming is going to be. I know there is only 4 guys in the team but I hope we wont have to share beds like in the conferences. The last two people I had to sleep with were crazy. But I move alot too so I dont want to be all crazy if I share a bed with someone. Also I snore a lot so its hecka embaressing too. I snore very loud. Ive been trying to train myself but.. not working... anyways back about work. Nothibg too crazy. Julie intimidates me cuz she's never there and I always think she's gonna pop out of nowhere and see me do somn wrong then say YOUR FIRED!! lol. worked with zac in the bookstore today. it was hecka boring. I was just roaming around the whole time helping people. Zac did all the register stuff.

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeent home.. took a nap and BAM... now IM here. I have a song to do for voice class tomorrow. Its the song I Can Gg The Distance from Hercules. But when I picked it I didnt know there was other parts. ITS SO HIGH!!! I have to sing falsetto most of the time. I mean it doesnt sound too bad but its kinda straining. But yeah. Trying to improve my range and the quality of my vocie cuz it sucks right now. I also have to learn all the songs fo rthe dvance by Tuesday night. I need to start working on that after classes tomorrow. I did such a bad job the last service I need to work harder cuz I want to do things for God in excelence.

I love my life. God sows me things I need to work on and I work on em. Its a wonderful life. I can look back and honestly say, I WAS THIS AND NOW IM TOTALLY DIFFERENT. Thank You God